boys, boys and boys

Hello world. I am writing about boys tonight. Oh boys, boys boys. So let's just talk a minute about vibrational soup. Vibrational soup is sort of the collection of energies you spend the most time in-at present I am extremely blessed to be spending a good deal of time at this glorious warehouse space. What is especially interesting about this warehouse space is that the side that i currently reside on consists of six ladies- all of them (including the person I am subletting from) are in a serious relationship with a man. Just to state that because I do date women and have told myself repeatedly that women are easier for me to date- yet the evidence to date is that I have dated twice as many men as women (in a literal 2:1) ratio. so anywho- i have for some time suspected that it is possible that i am telling myself stories to just keep myself from dating anyone. ha. clever mind tricks. so yes, as i was saying i am living at a warehouse where everyone is with someone. ut oh. i was a vibrational match to that... and then to make it even more fun! the other side H which shares the entrance has 4 girls and 3 boys... ALL of the girls are currently in the beginning stages (as of ummm the two weeks ago that i got here... no kidding friends)of dating BOYS. survey says- looks like the universe is cooking me up a MAN!

so that's all well and good and i was sort of like oh ha ha... and then i started hanging out over at H and listening to the girls. I am doing my best to perscribe to Louise Hay philosophy of not giving advice unless you believe that your life is what that person is wanting to create- so for those creating love life stuff I offer space and a loving ear. so yeah, all the girls are totally self confessed boy crazy. dun dun dun.

and there are lots of handsome men/boys in this city. i mean, god bless san francisco for cute boys. OMG. un!

I was pondering the interesting separation between me who is heroic (even if just in my own eyes) for the fullness of life experience I have lived and how timid i can be. I do not fear my wellbeing- I know I am capable of anything (backed up by my years of various doing) and yet if i find a boy cute I get so damn shy... and sometimes it is all i can do to muster up the courage to talk to someone and look into their eyes. And what does one (one being me) do when my body is like SEX NOW! YOU, YOU HAVE WAITED TOO LONG... MUST BE SATISFIED NOW NOW NOW!! so that voice and compulsion coupled with uhhh, haha so cute... oh yeah remember to breathe.

i believe most girls would say, welcome to the world girlfriend. and i appreciate that you- like me- wouldst put all of your experience onto what you are reading (its hard not to, its called your prespective, you put it on everything) and then my victim voice that is so eager to tell you my story and WHY i am different and WHY it is harder for me to achieve romantic bliss... but then this blog is called law of attraction in action... now here's the real dun dun dun...

so what i propose is that the universe... god. goddess.. spirit. i am... whatever works for you- is capable and is right now arranging all cooperative components for your, my and everyone elses joy REGARDLESS of their past story REGARDLESS of seeming impossibility. and it is totally available and totally doable. i have recently really taken to heart the idea that the universe is pulling from the web of life- ALL of creation- therefore if the universe is pulling from ALL of creation of the billions and billions of people of course one (bet lots more) are a match to what I am looking for in regards to love, life, sex and play and here's the cool part- not only are THEY a match to what i desire but simultaneously I am a match to what they are looking for and desiring. yep, it's really that cool.

so as i let a story i made up in my head about some boy here in sf get me all emotional and trigger all my buttons i picked up some angelite (its a lovely blue stone that is sort of a telephone to the angels... of which being psychic can be little or no use when you are too disconnected to HEAR or FEEL the help that is being endlessly offered to you) so since i was less than awesome- i picked up the angel telephone to have a chat. instantly i heard archangel michael (a VERY excellent and helpful friend of mine and if you are open to it- could be an excellent and helpful friend of yours too- he's totally a helper :) )so archangel michael says, 'you are freaking out. melissa, relax. you are freaking out. he's not for you. you need to be patient.' and especially to have access to him so clearly at that moment was awesome. it is so amazing to feel so alone and unsupported and then remember or realize that in fact- i am surrounded by help. i am absolutely immersed in love and being given every bit of help and support i need (because i ask for it, thats the hitch with them angels- you gotta ask for it before they can do anything). and whether or not this person- this man- is indeed mine or not is sort of immaterial. what i needed in that moment was to let it go- and to think of myself in the kindest terms possible. and i did. thank you archangel michael. and thank you to my friend annick who was my living angel on the phone- which interestingly enough- talking about vibrational set points and attraction points (dont worry, i will!) i adjusted my attraction point enough to receive the tangible love and support from my friend- after making the angel phone call and relaxing a bit about the whole thing. i love what abraham says and even have sent another angel to tell me- actually prior to my leaving for california the first time- 'you really make too much out of all of this. this is supposed to be fun.' oh non physical beings... i know, we must all seem so damn silly.

ok love and light y'all. may all your romantic unfoldings be blessed- wherever and however they are. amen amen amen.