Hello World

To all those friends and family who have wondered where my voice has gone (i think i have wondered a bit where my written voice had gone and if it had gone forever...) Maybe this is my compromise of a facebook huh? I have longed for the time where i connected to my friends and family with words- glorious written words. and yet for five years my written words have been still... paused in high exhaustion from a long run.

ha ha!

a run i say. a run to through and boo hoo-school

so much dank bitter weight. so i talked about the weight...

my weight- my weight- you would have thought i was dating it- for sure we had a close and intimate relationship.

now i would say i love my body. it is a physical expression of god therefore perfect.

let me tell you. i have been studying these laws of attraction with my dear beloved spirtual teachers abraham-hicks. if you dont know about them, i say let the revolution begin and receive some unconditional love. if you are already there- you get me. in short the law of attraction states that if you focus on something (and abrahams addition is that the way you feel is dictating whether you are on track with the things you want- your emotions tell you by good or bad feelings whether you arebheaded to something you will find pleasing or not. and the neat trick of this law of attraction if you take it seriously- which i do- so now i can put them to the

abraham talks a lot about worth and that is the biggest thing they have to reteach humans (yes they are channeled and therfore not physical nor human) as i am. right now. so yes i am worthy- as i am, i dont need to be more or less ANYTHING but am totally worthy to receive ALL my HEARTS DESIRES now just because i exist. so going on this idea that i am truly perfect- and i can in every moment make new decisions and have new opportunities to grow.

and lately ive been thinking about growth. so what if all the games we were told to play and all the charades we got really good at making-the lessons. right now in this moment, what is there for me because there is something for me. and how much can change so fast right? the world wind! oh what the 'stream' is capable of- all good things come quickly and efficiently. because god is not bound by space time and knows nothing of obstacles.

i love how available things are. effort is on the way out man. all is provided for. we are re experiencing eden. of course everything is provided for. and actually to pull some sense of 'reality' to these ramblings- i am currently living in a BIG BEAUTIFUL warehouse co op in San Francisco. it is pretty amazing!


welcome to the current life experience i am having. i am putting my beliefs in action. i am about two months into my journey with this (which i may or may not back log) and i have come to understand that i will be doing this for as long as it is going to take me to get it- so i have relaxed A LOT regarding how it is coming to frution. enter melissa moving from New Orleans and to California. and not even just california- but san francisco.

I do not think it is an accident that San Francisco is considered one the most fabulous and yet expensive places. what a good game universe. allow me to play out and SUCCEED and show to myself that i can SUCCEED amidst a proclaimed american uptopia but with a price tag.. so thats it. it s a belief around money that either will allow me to live this or not and either way i will succeed by being brave enough to do it. and by my doing this-i am creating the increased potentiality for others to make decisions that ultimately serve them but may seem scary at the time. i feel like a born uplifter and i am def a born helper. more on that later. geez, this is sooo fun.

so yeah, really taking this idea of ABUNDANCE- or PROVIDENCE... being provided for- answered before i even ask... like if my knowings and more importantly what i am PREACHING is possible is that there is a plenty and all needs are easily met then i think it makes sense for me to be living it. i think thats actually what teachers are- i think teachers are beings who are vibrationally secure in a particular trade, skill or process or even energy and able to offer the knowing and experience of that process thereby contributing to your greater success with whatever it is they are teaching.

so i call myself a teacher of self love and the laws of the attraction- i am living my words. yep, its true. and so san francisco, of which i can tell so far- you meaning me have to love myself fully and completely. either i can feel TOTALLY insecure and intimidated (and i have had several humbling experiences so far) and in those moments love myself totally and completely and be more aware that i am fabulous exactly as i am and that i love me and i have journeyed with me this far and i truly know how fabulous and amazing and lovable i am- see its all good growth. but yeah that san francisco is awesome and the people that live here- i mean, i am learning (circumventing a major detour in thought train). but i feel excited about receiving on big scales and not feeling like i have to apologize somehow. this place seems so rife with potentiality. like i could sudden escalate into ultra success and wealth... or if i were to experience a tremendous amount of surplus cash- this would be the place to experience that. there are so many fabulous things to spend money on.

i am delighted with san francisco excelling at hobbies. i have signed up to volunteer three times this coming week- i feel delighted about- i am becoming oriented to work with the elderly in san francisco and i am going to a crystal meditation manifestation gathering- yah! sf... and then i am celebrating halloween in a very different way this year.

although as i was leaving new orleans and looked around at the ladies i had been spending the full moons with- i was like ohhh i dont need to look for magical sisters... i have had them here, all the time- they were right here. (i felt a bit like dorothy when she wakes up at the end of wizard of oz) but had the total awareness of knowing these women before and i dare say it- around a fire or caludron. it is possible that i have spent my whole life denying witchliness and may be headed right for it.

i am celebrating this halloween with the spiral dance. and i am volunteering so i get to meet more people and experience ceremony. it feels really good, i am really happy about it.

and it is no accident that a woman who lives here in san francisco starhawk combines mystical spirituality and permaculture and sustainability- i mean GEEZ thats a good fit huh? if you have seen me with plants (or stones) i mean really. it feels like a million years better than last year my halloween in new orleans.

i knew and had known for quite some time that new orleans was an inappropriate match to my geographical joy and that last halloween was as in the abraham world- CONTRAST. so despite being under 30, i feel so totally in alignment and joyfully prefer to do magical ceremony than dress up and try to have someone like me (or whatever drunk shananagins are supposed unfold). so theres that.

and i am also working on a day of the dead piece because WIERDEST coincidence! one of the people who plan it for the city lives in the room next to mine in this fabulous co op housing that i am currently BLESSED to be living. AND THEN a girl in the warehouse next door also is doing an art installation altar and i got to help make it with other women (hand weaving) on the new moon. i SWEAR! i know right, totally a witch. but i have fought it so hard. and so i shall fall.

so yeah i am doing the witchly halloween and then i am celebrating my experience with grief by doing a day of the dead piece. so i will totally upload a picture when i am done but for now- it is sort of a triangle to represent my friend alan- my mom- and my kitty bella peaches and then a little bits of nola and my grand experience of nola. so that is my story. geez that was easy to write. i heart blogging. i hope that was readable. love and light.