Hello world. I am writing about boys tonight. Oh boys, boys boys. So let's just talk a minute about vibrational soup. Vibrational soup is sort of the collection of energies you spend the most time in-at present I am extremely blessed to be spending a good deal of time at this glorious warehouse space. What is especially interesting about this warehouse space is that the side that i currently reside on consists of six ladies- all of them (including the person I am subletting from) are in a serious relationship with a man. Just to state that because I do date women and have told myself repeatedly that women are easier for me to date- yet the evidence to date is that I have dated twice as many men as women (in a literal 2:1) ratio. so anywho- i have for some time suspected that it is possible that i am telling myself stories to just keep myself from dating anyone. ha. clever mind tricks. so yes, as i was saying i am living at a warehouse where everyone is with someone. ut oh. i was a vibrational match to that... and then to make it even more fun! the other side H which shares the entrance has 4 girls and 3 boys... ALL of the girls are currently in the beginning stages (as of ummm the two weeks ago that i got here... no kidding friends)of dating BOYS. survey says- looks like the universe is cooking me up a MAN!
so that's all well and good and i was sort of like oh ha ha... and then i started hanging out over at H and listening to the girls. I am doing my best to perscribe to Louise Hay philosophy of not giving advice unless you believe that your life is what that person is wanting to create- so for those creating love life stuff I offer space and a loving ear. so yeah, all the girls are totally self confessed boy crazy. dun dun dun.
and there are lots of handsome men/boys in this city. i mean, god bless san francisco for cute boys. OMG. un!
I was pondering the interesting separation between me who is heroic (even if just in my own eyes) for the fullness of life experience I have lived and how timid i can be. I do not fear my wellbeing- I know I am capable of anything (backed up by my years of various doing) and yet if i find a boy cute I get so damn shy... and sometimes it is all i can do to muster up the courage to talk to someone and look into their eyes. And what does one (one being me) do when my body is like SEX NOW! YOU, YOU HAVE WAITED TOO LONG... MUST BE SATISFIED NOW NOW NOW!! so that voice and compulsion coupled with uhhh, haha so cute... oh yeah remember to breathe.
i believe most girls would say, welcome to the world girlfriend. and i appreciate that you- like me- wouldst put all of your experience onto what you are reading (its hard not to, its called your prespective, you put it on everything) and then my victim voice that is so eager to tell you my story and WHY i am different and WHY it is harder for me to achieve romantic bliss... but then this blog is called law of attraction in action... now here's the real dun dun dun...
so what i propose is that the universe... god. goddess.. spirit. i am... whatever works for you- is capable and is right now arranging all cooperative components for your, my and everyone elses joy REGARDLESS of their past story REGARDLESS of seeming impossibility. and it is totally available and totally doable. i have recently really taken to heart the idea that the universe is pulling from the web of life- ALL of creation- therefore if the universe is pulling from ALL of creation of the billions and billions of people of course one (bet lots more) are a match to what I am looking for in regards to love, life, sex and play and here's the cool part- not only are THEY a match to what i desire but simultaneously I am a match to what they are looking for and desiring. yep, it's really that cool.
so as i let a story i made up in my head about some boy here in sf get me all emotional and trigger all my buttons i picked up some angelite (its a lovely blue stone that is sort of a telephone to the angels... of which being psychic can be little or no use when you are too disconnected to HEAR or FEEL the help that is being endlessly offered to you) so since i was less than awesome- i picked up the angel telephone to have a chat. instantly i heard archangel michael (a VERY excellent and helpful friend of mine and if you are open to it- could be an excellent and helpful friend of yours too- he's totally a helper :) )so archangel michael says, 'you are freaking out. melissa, relax. you are freaking out. he's not for you. you need to be patient.' and especially to have access to him so clearly at that moment was awesome. it is so amazing to feel so alone and unsupported and then remember or realize that in fact- i am surrounded by help. i am absolutely immersed in love and being given every bit of help and support i need (because i ask for it, thats the hitch with them angels- you gotta ask for it before they can do anything). and whether or not this person- this man- is indeed mine or not is sort of immaterial. what i needed in that moment was to let it go- and to think of myself in the kindest terms possible. and i did. thank you archangel michael. and thank you to my friend annick who was my living angel on the phone- which interestingly enough- talking about vibrational set points and attraction points (dont worry, i will!) i adjusted my attraction point enough to receive the tangible love and support from my friend- after making the angel phone call and relaxing a bit about the whole thing. i love what abraham says and even have sent another angel to tell me- actually prior to my leaving for california the first time- 'you really make too much out of all of this. this is supposed to be fun.' oh non physical beings... i know, we must all seem so damn silly.
ok love and light y'all. may all your romantic unfoldings be blessed- wherever and however they are. amen amen amen.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
Hello World
To all those friends and family who have wondered where my voice has gone (i think i have wondered a bit where my written voice had gone and if it had gone forever...) Maybe this is my compromise of a facebook huh? I have longed for the time where i connected to my friends and family with words- glorious written words. and yet for five years my written words have been still... paused in high exhaustion from a long run.
ha ha!
a run i say. a run to through and boo hoo-school
so much dank bitter weight. so i talked about the weight...
my weight- my weight- you would have thought i was dating it- for sure we had a close and intimate relationship.
now i would say i love my body. it is a physical expression of god therefore perfect.
abraham talks a lot about worth and that is the biggest thing they have to reteach humans (yes they are channeled and therfore not physical nor human) as i am. right now. so yes i am worthy- as i am, i dont need to be more or less ANYTHING but am totally worthy to receive ALL my HEARTS DESIRES now just because i exist. so going on this idea that i am truly perfect- and i can in every moment make new decisions and have new opportunities to grow.
and lately ive been thinking about growth. so what if all the games we were told to play and all the charades we got really good at making-the lessons. right now in this moment, what is there for me because there is something for me. and how much can change so fast right? the world wind! oh what the 'stream' is capable of- all good things come quickly and efficiently. because god is not bound by space time and knows nothing of obstacles.
i love how available things are. effort is on the way out man. all is provided for. we are re experiencing eden. of course everything is provided for. and actually to pull some sense of 'reality' to these ramblings- i am currently living in a BIG BEAUTIFUL warehouse co op in San Francisco. it is pretty amazing!
welcome to the current life experience i am having. i am putting my beliefs in action. i am about two months into my journey with this (which i may or may not back log) and i have come to understand that i will be doing this for as long as it is going to take me to get it- so i have relaxed A LOT regarding how it is coming to frution. enter melissa moving from New Orleans and to California. and not even just california- but san francisco.
I do not think it is an accident that San Francisco is considered one the most fabulous and yet expensive places. what a good game universe. allow me to play out and SUCCEED and show to myself that i can SUCCEED amidst a proclaimed american uptopia but with a price tag.. so thats it. it s a belief around money that either will allow me to live this or not and either way i will succeed by being brave enough to do it. and by my doing this-i am creating the increased potentiality for others to make decisions that ultimately serve them but may seem scary at the time. i feel like a born uplifter and i am def a born helper. more on that later. geez, this is sooo fun.
so yeah, really taking this idea of ABUNDANCE- or PROVIDENCE... being provided for- answered before i even ask... like if my knowings and more importantly what i am PREACHING is possible is that there is a plenty and all needs are easily met then i think it makes sense for me to be living it. i think thats actually what teachers are- i think teachers are beings who are vibrationally secure in a particular trade, skill or process or even energy and able to offer the knowing and experience of that process thereby contributing to your greater success with whatever it is they are teaching.
so i call myself a teacher of self love and the laws of the attraction- i am living my words. yep, its true. and so san francisco, of which i can tell so far- you meaning me have to love myself fully and completely. either i can feel TOTALLY insecure and intimidated (and i have had several humbling experiences so far) and in those moments love myself totally and completely and be more aware that i am fabulous exactly as i am and that i love me and i have journeyed with me this far and i truly know how fabulous and amazing and lovable i am- see its all good growth. but yeah that san francisco is awesome and the people that live here- i mean, i am learning (circumventing a major detour in thought train). but i feel excited about receiving on big scales and not feeling like i have to apologize somehow. this place seems so rife with potentiality. like i could sudden escalate into ultra success and wealth... or if i were to experience a tremendous amount of surplus cash- this would be the place to experience that. there are so many fabulous things to spend money on.
i am delighted with san francisco excelling at hobbies. i have signed up to volunteer three times this coming week- i feel delighted about- i am becoming oriented to work with the elderly in san francisco and i am going to a crystal meditation manifestation gathering- yah! sf... and then i am celebrating halloween in a very different way this year.
although as i was leaving new orleans and looked around at the ladies i had been spending the full moons with- i was like ohhh i dont need to look for magical sisters... i have had them here, all the time- they were right here. (i felt a bit like dorothy when she wakes up at the end of wizard of oz) but had the total awareness of knowing these women before and i dare say it- around a fire or caludron. it is possible that i have spent my whole life denying witchliness and may be headed right for it.
i am celebrating this halloween with the spiral dance. and i am volunteering so i get to meet more people and experience ceremony. it feels really good, i am really happy about it.
and it is no accident that a woman who lives here in san francisco starhawk combines mystical spirituality and permaculture and sustainability- i mean GEEZ thats a good fit huh? if you have seen me with plants (or stones) i mean really. it feels like a million years better than last year my halloween in new orleans.
i knew and had known for quite some time that new orleans was an inappropriate match to my geographical joy and that last halloween was as in the abraham world- CONTRAST. so despite being under 30, i feel so totally in alignment and joyfully prefer to do magical ceremony than dress up and try to have someone like me (or whatever drunk shananagins are supposed unfold). so theres that.
and i am also working on a day of the dead piece because WIERDEST coincidence! one of the people who plan it for the city lives in the room next to mine in this fabulous co op housing that i am currently BLESSED to be living. AND THEN a girl in the warehouse next door also is doing an art installation altar and i got to help make it with other women (hand weaving) on the new moon. i SWEAR! i know right, totally a witch. but i have fought it so hard. and so i shall fall.
so yeah i am doing the witchly halloween and then i am celebrating my experience with grief by doing a day of the dead piece. so i will totally upload a picture when i am done but for now- it is sort of a triangle to represent my friend alan- my mom- and my kitty bella peaches and then a little bits of nola and my grand experience of nola. so that is my story. geez that was easy to write. i heart blogging. i hope that was readable. love and light.
ha ha!
a run i say. a run to through and boo hoo-school
so much dank bitter weight. so i talked about the weight...
my weight- my weight- you would have thought i was dating it- for sure we had a close and intimate relationship.
now i would say i love my body. it is a physical expression of god therefore perfect.
let me tell you. i have been studying these laws of attraction with my dear beloved spirtual teachers abraham-hicks. if you dont know about them, i say let the revolution begin and receive some unconditional love. if you are already there- you get me. in short the law of attraction states that if you focus on something (and abrahams addition is that the way you feel is dictating whether you are on track with the things you want- your emotions tell you by good or bad feelings whether you arebheaded to something you will find pleasing or not. and the neat trick of this law of attraction if you take it seriously- which i do- so now i can put them to the
abraham talks a lot about worth and that is the biggest thing they have to reteach humans (yes they are channeled and therfore not physical nor human) as i am. right now. so yes i am worthy- as i am, i dont need to be more or less ANYTHING but am totally worthy to receive ALL my HEARTS DESIRES now just because i exist. so going on this idea that i am truly perfect- and i can in every moment make new decisions and have new opportunities to grow.
and lately ive been thinking about growth. so what if all the games we were told to play and all the charades we got really good at making-the lessons. right now in this moment, what is there for me because there is something for me. and how much can change so fast right? the world wind! oh what the 'stream' is capable of- all good things come quickly and efficiently. because god is not bound by space time and knows nothing of obstacles.
i love how available things are. effort is on the way out man. all is provided for. we are re experiencing eden. of course everything is provided for. and actually to pull some sense of 'reality' to these ramblings- i am currently living in a BIG BEAUTIFUL warehouse co op in San Francisco. it is pretty amazing!
welcome to the current life experience i am having. i am putting my beliefs in action. i am about two months into my journey with this (which i may or may not back log) and i have come to understand that i will be doing this for as long as it is going to take me to get it- so i have relaxed A LOT regarding how it is coming to frution. enter melissa moving from New Orleans and to California. and not even just california- but san francisco.
I do not think it is an accident that San Francisco is considered one the most fabulous and yet expensive places. what a good game universe. allow me to play out and SUCCEED and show to myself that i can SUCCEED amidst a proclaimed american uptopia but with a price tag.. so thats it. it s a belief around money that either will allow me to live this or not and either way i will succeed by being brave enough to do it. and by my doing this-i am creating the increased potentiality for others to make decisions that ultimately serve them but may seem scary at the time. i feel like a born uplifter and i am def a born helper. more on that later. geez, this is sooo fun.
so yeah, really taking this idea of ABUNDANCE- or PROVIDENCE... being provided for- answered before i even ask... like if my knowings and more importantly what i am PREACHING is possible is that there is a plenty and all needs are easily met then i think it makes sense for me to be living it. i think thats actually what teachers are- i think teachers are beings who are vibrationally secure in a particular trade, skill or process or even energy and able to offer the knowing and experience of that process thereby contributing to your greater success with whatever it is they are teaching.
so i call myself a teacher of self love and the laws of the attraction- i am living my words. yep, its true. and so san francisco, of which i can tell so far- you meaning me have to love myself fully and completely. either i can feel TOTALLY insecure and intimidated (and i have had several humbling experiences so far) and in those moments love myself totally and completely and be more aware that i am fabulous exactly as i am and that i love me and i have journeyed with me this far and i truly know how fabulous and amazing and lovable i am- see its all good growth. but yeah that san francisco is awesome and the people that live here- i mean, i am learning (circumventing a major detour in thought train). but i feel excited about receiving on big scales and not feeling like i have to apologize somehow. this place seems so rife with potentiality. like i could sudden escalate into ultra success and wealth... or if i were to experience a tremendous amount of surplus cash- this would be the place to experience that. there are so many fabulous things to spend money on.
i am delighted with san francisco excelling at hobbies. i have signed up to volunteer three times this coming week- i feel delighted about- i am becoming oriented to work with the elderly in san francisco and i am going to a crystal meditation manifestation gathering- yah! sf... and then i am celebrating halloween in a very different way this year.
although as i was leaving new orleans and looked around at the ladies i had been spending the full moons with- i was like ohhh i dont need to look for magical sisters... i have had them here, all the time- they were right here. (i felt a bit like dorothy when she wakes up at the end of wizard of oz) but had the total awareness of knowing these women before and i dare say it- around a fire or caludron. it is possible that i have spent my whole life denying witchliness and may be headed right for it.
i am celebrating this halloween with the spiral dance. and i am volunteering so i get to meet more people and experience ceremony. it feels really good, i am really happy about it.
and it is no accident that a woman who lives here in san francisco starhawk combines mystical spirituality and permaculture and sustainability- i mean GEEZ thats a good fit huh? if you have seen me with plants (or stones) i mean really. it feels like a million years better than last year my halloween in new orleans.
i knew and had known for quite some time that new orleans was an inappropriate match to my geographical joy and that last halloween was as in the abraham world- CONTRAST. so despite being under 30, i feel so totally in alignment and joyfully prefer to do magical ceremony than dress up and try to have someone like me (or whatever drunk shananagins are supposed unfold). so theres that.
and i am also working on a day of the dead piece because WIERDEST coincidence! one of the people who plan it for the city lives in the room next to mine in this fabulous co op housing that i am currently BLESSED to be living. AND THEN a girl in the warehouse next door also is doing an art installation altar and i got to help make it with other women (hand weaving) on the new moon. i SWEAR! i know right, totally a witch. but i have fought it so hard. and so i shall fall.
so yeah i am doing the witchly halloween and then i am celebrating my experience with grief by doing a day of the dead piece. so i will totally upload a picture when i am done but for now- it is sort of a triangle to represent my friend alan- my mom- and my kitty bella peaches and then a little bits of nola and my grand experience of nola. so that is my story. geez that was easy to write. i heart blogging. i hope that was readable. love and light.
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